I want to say to you.
Ask you how you’ve been.
Tell you how much I really missed you.
But I’m scared that you might think I never really cared when in reality I had no way to reach you when it was your birthday.
If only you knew how much i wished i could contact you when a memory of you came to mind and I wanted to see how you were doing.
You’re so close, yet so far.
Out of nowhere.
Being the gentleman that you are, you didn’t want to be rude so you just talked .
But because you knew her so well you could tell that she still cared about you.
As you told me this I stayed quiet.
I wanted to know what you would say.
You told me that what sucked the most was that her dad was finally okay with your relationship the day after you broke up.
You said .” if I had just waited one more day…”
And on the other line, my heart was breaking and tears were running down my face as I thought to myself…
” if you had waited one more day, you would have never met me. And none of this, what we are would exist”
You asked me later if I was tired because I was quiet on the other side of the line for so long.
I wasn’t quiet because I was tired.
I was quiet because I was crying , and I didn’t want you to hear me.
Because all I could think of was the pain i’d feel if you just walked away from me and went back to her.
I could hear the pain in your voice . And as much as you try to run away, I know you still love her. I can’t hate you for that. She’ll always be a part of you.i just hope one day you’ll feel for me the same way you feel for her
MY HEART.
PERFECTION.
DIED.
CRIED.
I WAS TOTALLY FLIPPED OFF ( totally fucked ) BY MELCHIOR BECAUSE I WAS SITTING SECOND ROW SPLIT CENTER BUT I LOVED IT.
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Talking for 6 hours is equivalent to a day spent with you.
I don’t know how long it will be before we see each other in person again. But the moments where you do find the time to contact me: from a minute to six hours , I’ll cherish them all.
It doesn’t bother me that we can’t contact each other like other couples, because I know we’ll always find a way.
I miss you, terribly.
And I can’t wait to be held in your arms again.
Whether its a week or a month from now, I’ll be waiting.
